This is the first one of these I’ve actually sat down and rewritten because of complicated feelings. I love this song, it’s one of my most played songs on Spotify. It reminds me, like some of the other songs, of winter of last year and the friends I had. Upstate New York winters are brutal, with sub-zero temperatures and mountains of snow. It’s usually the worst, loneliest time of the year. But that winter was so much fun. It was something I was aware of at the time—how every day had something fun associated with it, whether it was a joke at lunch, a day spent shopping, or a late night facetime call. It’s a time period I romanticize in my head and this song is heavily associated with it.
This song is also heavily associated with Faith, one of my best friends from this time. There’s a lot of internal struggle with what I should and shouldn’t write. I want to write about how I’ve never laughed as hard as consistently with anyone else. How Faith was one of the first people I really put effort into befriending. How she helped uplift me, making me more confident in myself, constantly hyping me up day in, day out. When I got into USC she and Gianna called me screaming and it was pure excitement from the both of them, and I remember feeling so loved. But nobody’s perfect and there are things about Faith that weren’t so great. There’s a reason we’re not friends anymore, and even though those reasons are valid, it still sucks. I’m a very friendship oriented person and I don’t like losing friends so suddenly, and especially someone who was such a big part of my life. Even trying to find photos that relate to this makes me sad. I think people enter your life when they’re supposed to, when you need them the most. This is something I’d talk to Faith about and it still rings true. The truth is Faith entered my life at a pivotal time and made it infinitely better. I would not be the person I am today without her. And while it makes me sad that we’re not friends anymore, that’s life. People grow and change and sometimes you both go down different paths. What I can appreciate are the times when she was one of my best friends.
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